I am mustering the courage

to run towards

the life I think I deserve

my step wobbles every so often

when I think of the million ways in which

I fall short and

feel small

I am mustering the courage

to love you in the way that your soul deserves

and my heart weeps to do

I falter ever so often

when I think of the million ways in which

I have failed to love me and

how I could possibly love you enough

I am mustering the courage

to run towards me

so that I can find a sure way to step away

from the hiding behind old habits

that make things faster but short lived

I want to love me

so that I can allow you to love me

so that I can love you

and possibly, maybe…

love us together