I am mustering the courage
to run towards
the life I think I deserve
my step wobbles every so often
when I think of the million ways in which
I fall short and
feel small
I am mustering the courage
to love you in the way that your soul deserves
and my heart weeps to do
I falter ever so often
when I think of the million ways in which
I have failed to love me and
how I could possibly love you enough
I am mustering the courage
to run towards me
so that I can find a sure way to step away
from the hiding behind old habits
that make things faster but short lived
I want to love me
so that I can allow you to love me
so that I can love you
and possibly, maybe…
love us together